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ebook / ISBN-13: 9781409177333

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‘I loved it’ Jojo Moyes

‘Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry’ Marian Keyes


Audrey’s family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?


Praise for If Only I Could Tell You:

‘A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything’SUNDAY EXPRESS MAGAZINE

‘Resolutely heartbreaking…in a plot galvanised by guilt…quieter observations become just as unravelling’ – GUARDIAN

‘A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets’ Clare Mackintosh, author of I Let You Go
‘Tense, moving and tender’SUN ON SUNDAY

‘Tender, heartbreaking and utterly beautiful’PSYCHOLOGIES

‘Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking. I couldn’t put it down’ Ruth Hogan, author of The Keeper of Lost Things

‘A powerful novel about grief, guilt and…secrets’SUNDAY EXPRESS

‘Emotionally engaging, clever & wonderfully satisfying’ Kate Mosse, author of The Burning Chambers

‘A tender and heartbreaking second novel’ – DAILY MAIL

If Only I Could Tell You breaks your heart, but with an incredible skill and elegance… I loved it to bits’ Joanna Cannon, author of The Trouble With Goats and Sheep


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[An] incredibly moving, poignant book...It will have you in floods of tears
Louise O'Neill
A beautiful tale... Heartbreaking and uplifting
Ruth Jones
A brave depiction of a family torn apart
Laura Barnett
A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything
Sunday Express Magazine
A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets
Clare Mackintosh
A tender story that will have you reaching for tissues
A tender, moving portrait of three women's lives... If Only I Could Tell You broke my heart
Rosie Walsh, author of The Man Who Didn't Call
A wise and tender tale of a family divided...compelling from the first page to the last
Emylia Hall
An intricately tender novel about secrets and silence
Julie Cohen
Engaging, clever, and wonderfully satisfying . . . storytelling at its finest
Kate Mosse
Hot reads: If Only I Could Tell You really tugs the heartstrings
Good Housekeeping
I loved it
Jojo Moyes
I pure loved it! Compelling and deeply moving
Marian Keyes
Lyrical and deeply emotional
Katy Regan
Profoundly beautiful and heartbreaking in turn
Kate Hamer
Tender, heartbreaking and utterly beautiful
Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive
Kate Eberlen
Toxic friendship [is] beautifully explored in Hannah Beckerman's If Only I Could Tell You
Marie Claire
Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking
Ruth Hogan
Utterly heartbreaking and beautifully written
Libby Page
Wonderful . . . I loved it to bits
Joanna Cannon
A compelling yet tender tale
Woman & Home
Tense, moving and tender
Sun on Sunday
A tender story
Sunday Mirror
A powerful novel about grief, guilt and...secrets
Sunday Express
A tender and heartbreaking second novel
Daily Mail
Emotionally-charged and superbly crafted . . . For all its emotional intensity and heartbreaking themes, Beckerman's compelling, compassionate novel delivers ultimately life-affirming and uplifting messages with eloquence, elegance and an acute understanding of the delicate but unbreakable bonds of family
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