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Hardcover / ISBN-13: 9781409177302

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‘I loved it’ Jojo Moyes

‘Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry’ Marian Keyes


Audrey’s family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?


Your favourite authors are all being swept away by If Only I Could Tell You:

‘Had me totally gripped. Highly recommended’ Sara Cox, author of Till the Cows Come Home

‘Heartbreaking and uplifting’ Ruth Jones, author of Never Greener

‘Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking. I couldn’t put it down’ Ruth Hogan, author of The Keeper of Lost Things

‘A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets’ Clare Mackintosh, author of I Let You Go

‘Emotionally engaging, clever & wonderfully satisfying’ Kate Mosse, author of The Burning Chambers

If Only I Could Tell You breaks your heart, but with an incredible skill and elegance… I loved it to bits’ Joanna Cannon, author of The Trouble With Goats and Sheep

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Hot reads: If Only I Could Tell You really tugs the heartstrings
Good Housekeeping
A compelling yet tender tale
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Sun on Sunday
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Sunday Mirror
A powerful novel about grief, guilt and...secrets
Sunday Express
A tender and heartbreaking second novel
Daily Mail
Emotionally-charged and superbly crafted . . . For all its emotional intensity and heartbreaking themes, Beckerman's compelling, compassionate novel delivers ultimately life-affirming and uplifting messages with eloquence, elegance and an acute understanding of the delicate but unbreakable bonds of family
Lancashire Post
A beautiful tale... Heartbreaking and uplifting
Ruth Jones
A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets
Clare Mackintosh
A tender, moving portrait of three women's lives... If Only I Could Tell You broke my heart
Rosie Walsh, author of The Man Who Didn't Call
An intricately tender novel about secrets and silence
Julie Cohen
I pure loved it! Compelling and deeply moving
Marian Keyes
Engaging, clever, and wonderfully satisfying . . . storytelling at its finest
Kate Mosse
Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking
Ruth Hogan
Wonderful . . . I loved it to bits
Joanna Cannon
Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive
Kate Eberlen
[An] incredibly moving, poignant book...It will have you in floods of tears
Louise O'Neill
Profoundly beautiful and heartbreaking in turn
Kate Hamer
Utterly heartbreaking and beautifully written
Libby Page
A wise and tender tale of a family divided...compelling from the first page to the last
Emylia Hall
Lyrical and deeply emotional
Katy Regan
I loved it
Jojo Moyes
A brave depiction of a family torn apart
Laura Barnett
Toxic friendship [is] beautifully explored in Hannah Beckerman's If Only I Could Tell You
Marie Claire
Tender, heartbreaking and utterly beautiful
A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything
Sunday Express Magazine
A tender story that will have you reaching for tissues