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Have you ever been madly in love? Love that alters you so that you lose sight of who you were before? Love which is impossible to find your way back from when things falls apart?

I found I didn’t know who I had become. I couldn’t find the woman youd met. I only knew that if you didn’t want her, neither did I.

There is more than one way to stay close to someone… if you’re prepared to do whatever it takes.

Skye meets the feckless but handsome Johnny Strachan in the Alps where she reluctantly falls into a heady love affair. At home, Johnny has promised to call her, this is just the beginning after all. But when Skye hears nothing from him, it seems it’s actually the end.

Broken by his treatment of her and unable to return to her former self, Skye finds another way back into Johnny’s life and the people in it. When she meets Anna, Johnny’s best friend, she soon discovers that Anna has always been in love with Johnny, and always been taken for granted by him. Then the women decide that enough is enough, and set out together to right a few wrongs…

A twisty tale of deceit and obsession, where female friendship turns out to be the thing worth fighting for.

Read by Carolyn Bonnyman
(p) Orion Publishing Group 2018


This is a beautiful and extraordinary debut novel, deeply immersive, intricate and original. Full of intelligence and utterly gripping, it is an all too real story of something that can happen to any person who is consumed by unrequited love, with a heroine who commands our sympathy and intense attention despite - no, because of - her driving impulse to seek understanding by looking where she shouldn't.
Claire Kendal, author of THE BOOK OF YOU