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‘Here is what we know, those of us who can speak to tell a story: On the afternoon of October 21st, my wife, Lexy Ransome, climbed to the top of the apple tree in our back yard and fell to her death. There were no witnesses, save our dog Lorelei . . .’

So begins this remarkable, unputdownable debut about a man faced with the sudden and inexplicable loss of the love of his life. Convinced that Lexy’s death was not an accident, and driven by a desire to discover what really happened that October afternoon, Paul decides to embark on the only course of action he can possibly imagine. What follows is a luminous account of an extraordinary, magical love affair, and its aftermath. This is the story of a passionate woman and her irrepressible dreams; of a man who does not know how to begin to live without her; of an animal’s loyalty and devotion, and of the desperate search for answers that leads them all to places they never expected to go.


Inventive and gripping . . . Parkhurst handles the quest formula with originality and humour
Literary Review
If you like a tear-jerker with a twist you'll adore this. In the vein of Maggie O'Farrell's After You'd Gone, it deals with the loss of a loved one
One of those rare novels . . . that intrigues, pulls on the heartstrings and confuses you all at once
Time Out
A shimmering fictional portrait of love and loss
Prepare to have your heart smashed into melancholy pieces
Mesmerising and unusual . . . The book is beautifully written and, alongside thriller-like elements, packs a powerful emotional punch
Good Housekeeping
A quirky and endearing love triangle
Marie Claire (US)
This is the kind of book you stay up all night to finish
A charming, tender study in grief
Marian Keyes, The Week
Wonderfully inventive and slyly funny
Alexei Sayle, Telegraph Book of the Year