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ebook / ISBN-13: 9781398705951

Price: £16.99

ON SALE: 8th September 2022

Genre: Biography & True Stories / Memoirs

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‘This is a remarkable book. The honesty is startling and potent’
Dawn French

‘You have to buy this book. I mean it. It’s very funny and sad and utterly true. It’s a life-saver’
Miriam Margolyes

Hi. I hope you’re ok.

My name’s Joe, and I have one job, every day: don’t kill myself.

I live with a complex mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

15% of people with BPD die by suicide, and 40% try.

I’m already in the 40%. My job is to keep out of the 15%.

In this book I want to try and explain what life is like when you have a brain that is essentially trying to murder you every day. It’s a collection of the funny, sad and shocking stuff that has happened to me along the way.

Writing this book has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It had to be dragged into the world, with my condition telling me that every single word, sentence and chapter was terrible and would make strangers walk up to me in the street and punch me in the face.

But I had run out of options. I’d done everything I ‘d been told to do and I still thought about killing myself every day. So I wrote this book to save my life.

But if there is even the smallest chance that me telling you how I live with me helps you live with you; if it opens up a space for someone, somewhere to be more honest about their mental illness, it will have been worth it.

Please don’t kill yourself.

Love Joe xx

‘Please read this book. It will make the world a better place’
James O’Brien

‘This book will save lives’
Lorraine Kelly

‘Just holding this book will make you a better person’
Paddy McGuinness

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You have to buy this book. I mean it. It's very funny and sad and utterly true. It's a life-saver. And Joe Tracini is a magician. He wins in the end. And so will you
Miriam Margolyes
A remarkable book. The honesty is startling, and potent. IT IS UTTERLY NOT S**T'
Dawn French
A truly extraordinary book. Brave, beautiful and brilliant. Heartbreaking, harrowing and frequently hilarious. Joe Tracini travels to the horrible heart of his abominable illness and unflinchingly examines the misery it has heaped upon him and everyone around him. Incredibly, he emerges from the darkness with a timeless tale of love, hope and redemption that will be of immeasurable help to people facing the most destructive demons and, crucially, everyone who loves them. Please read this book. It will make the world a better place
James O'Brien
This a searingly honest must read. Joe has wisdom, kindness and a deep understanding of mental health issues. He is also hilarious with a delicious sense of humour. His book will save lives and I cannot recommend it highly enough
Lorraine Kelly
Just holding this book will make you a better person
Paddy McGuinness